a special experience for me

So we went out on a limb and decided to take baby Emery Kate Mihu to church when she was 2 weeks and 2 days old (April 26, 2015)...We didn't let anyone hold her but Nate and I.  All of our girls did so well at church!  once again...we feel so blessed!

When we thought we had lost baby Emery at 16 weeks, I received a special blessing (prayer) in the hospital before I was released from Nate's brother Robert.  I am grateful Nate asked him to administer it and that Robert's wife, Tina, was their with her kind words and faith.  It has been on my mind a lot lately as I snuggle all of my girls, but especially baby Emery.  I had a 50% sub-chronic hemorrhage ( http://www.whattoexpect.com/pregnancy/pregnancy-health/complications/subchorionic-bleeding.aspx ) and I thought I was going to miscarry her.  I (and Nate) couldn't stop crying over the next few days and my doctor recommended bed rest and to not lift anything heavier than 10 pounds and to avoid stairs and long walking.  He said it could go both ways, the hemorrhage could heal and both me and baby could be just fine, or it could get worse and I could lose the baby...I was so scared and sad.  I had already felt her move, already had made a bond, already loved her so much, already knew I was meant to be her mommy.  What would happen if I lost this baby?  Would I want to try for another baby?  How would I heal?  Would I blame myself for getting the hemorrhage and causing myself to lose my baby?  Would I ever get to hold her, kiss her, love her, and teach her how much she means to me?  I knew she was special and I was willing to fight for her.  I did exactly what the doctor said and after a few more ultrasounds and weeks went by, we would get so happy when they would tell us, "well you made it to another milestone."  and then when I had an ultrasound in March, I was told (around 32ish weeks I think it was) they tech said she couldn't even see the hemorrhage for two reasons: either it was gone/healed or the baby was so far head down that her head was covering it and if it was her head then it definitely was very small.  I may have cried when I hear those words.  I know my Heavenly Father lives and watches over his children.  I have a testimony of prayer and if we ask faithfully we will be blessed.

To this day that one night stands out in my head.  Our prayers were heard, I acted upon and did what the doctors told me to do, I had faith me and baby girl were being watched over, and I was able to deliver such a beautiful, healthy, baby girl that was meant to be a part of our family!